Well, it's been a year on Weight Watchers and I'm still hanging in there. I'm very proud of myself. I figured that if I stuck with it for a year, that completely changing my lifestyle could actually happen.
So, here I am.
Big pat on back.
A year ago today, I couldn't do a lot of things that I can do now. I'm not going to get into specifics. It's really not necessary. The fact is that just making these positive changes in my life and doing them day in and day out, despite some bumps in the road, is worth celebrating.
A year ago, I thought that I would be much closer to my goal weight than I am. Now, I know that goal was unrealistic. A year ago, I was very scared. I didn't want to fail again. Somewhere, somehow, during this year, I had a shift of mind and it became a new life.
A year ago, I was embarrassed to talk about my weight. In fact, a year ago, I was so disgusted with myself that I couldn't reach out to a soul. I wrote this blog for myself and only about 4 months ago, did I decide that I felt strong enough to connect with other people online. Those of you that I've met, I am eternally grateful for your wisdom and friendship.
A year ago, I was hungry all the time and then I learned how to effectively fuel my body. I ached from the challenge of starting to work out. A year ago, I could only do about 20 minutes of cardio and I could only lift one pound weights.
A year ago, I shed some takers from my life.
A year ago, I was so angry with myself for getting so lost and so overwhelmed and overextended with caring and giving to other people that I forgot to take care of ME. A year ago, it suddenly occurred to me that if I don't take care of ME, then I can't take care of anyone else.
A year from now I may look back on today as having some unrealistic goals. I may regret some things and be celebrating others. But, a year from now, I will still be doing what I will for the rest of my life. I will be marching forward, slogging along if I have to. I will not give up.
Taking a little time to play with words, to play with food, and just to play!